It was 2014, I had just ended an emotional draining 18-year marriage with four boys. I felt so hurt, depleted, anger at my situation. Crying daily as the world seems like a constant noise.
I had all the nasty put-downs swelling in my head, absorbed from the people around me and form my past. I was broken, hurt, afraid, thin, exhausted, and triggered. I was running on empty and autopilot. I had so many expenses and everything was on my shoulders, struggling daily. No support and no one to help me.
But most of all I desired inner peace
I realized that my only help and support at that moment was Allah SWT. As I drove the car to work one afternoon in a stream of tears I called out Hasbunallah Wa Ni’mal-Wakil(Sufficient for us is Allah, and [He is] the best Disposer of affairs.)
I made a choice.
I chose to heal, a new chapter in life, working on mindset and to rebirthing my soul connected to Allah SWT and fully in trust to his beautiful plan.
Looking forward to today, almost seven years ahead the work and learnings I have done allowed a rebirth of reclaiming my life back and the benefits have been a transformation.
I am a different, authentic, and whole person. I have completely different perceptions of the world and most of all the journey back to connecting to my heart, soul, health and children in the age of rush and busy.
I have done many years of inner reflection and inner healing work, working on my heart and soul resulting in being content, letting go of inner mean self-talk, truly taking responsibility for my life with clarity and living life with passion, hope and fearlessly achieving heart goals, with trust in Allah SWT in the pursuit of Allah SWT’s pleasure.
Through committing to and investing in myself,
I was able to let go of self-doubt and be confident in my decision making.
The insecurities started to drop. The negative thoughts based on past experiences dropped.
I can make shifts in my thinking as I learnt the psychology of how we think and feel.
I have learnt to let go of a painful pattern, triggers and limiting beliefs I wasn’t even aware of I carried ALL my life.
I can navigate test, challenges and obstacles more effortless and with a calmer response and not staying awake worried at night.
I am acknowledging my wins, showing up in life, sharing my knowledge.
I have healthy boundaries in every aspect of my life.
I was able to see clearly what a healthy relationship and show up validating me in my marriage.
I am more consciously aware of how resilient I am and now empowering mothers to have the same shifts in their lives.